good news - found DZ at last! will link her then.

the "adddoooooiii" news - send my 5 yr old 850 kancil mileage 66K for normal servis. expecting to spend around RM80-RM150.00 ler. BUT, what happen is - gotta change the timing belt, break pad (dah haus giler), shock absorber (dah bocor and start makan tayar), plug (selalu semput nak start), pintu belakang lock jammed, normal servis (black oil bla bla).... all in cost me RM580 ++. Cincai kira RM600 le uncle servis tu kata. wahlau betollah.... nak tunggu bulan depan, rasa cam dangerous pulak kan, itu le kuda aku gi balik keja (and jadi minah rempit also!errr.. rempit pakai keta dibenarkan ke?). and along / mak ayah selalu pinjam keta aku gi Kluang tengok adik kat sekolah agama... tu ari big bro pinjam gi GEMAS lagikkk... padan pun aku bawak keta dah rasa tak smooth...

ayayayayyayayayayayayayaya hubby toloooooooonggggg!!!!

soon after i end my sentence in the previous post, received SMS from bro that dad was receiving treatment in the putri polyclinic batu 10. immediately get the PA to tell boss that i won't be around for the rest of the day and i drove out from the campus. whether i have difficulties to retreat my memory, or the city council forgot to put enough signboard, i actually lost my way to the clinic, which actually would take only 10 minutes from the office.

the doctor has given dad a jab and a pint of "water", since he can't empty his bladder and . from 12.30 to 2.30 we waited there, bro took our old man back to Gelang Patah to settle few things at home, and at 4 pm i brought mom and dad to Larkin, and see this lady whom i've met few times before to "tengok-tengokkan" or "mintak air" whenever my kids seems unwell, cried non-stop all nights and watever the "unseen" creature has done and makes the bright day seem dark..(ehe, peliknyer mana la aku dapat idiom kan).

sebenarnya orang tua aku gi menebas kat kebun getah yang dah jadi hutan kat kampung. that day dad found a small pond in the middle of the hutan, which he himself admit it's kinda weird coz the pond seems very well mantained, the area which surround it were very clean plus the clear crytal water still in the pond. as if someone were guarding if not using it.

the night after that he dreamed of black cat on his head (bertenggek atas kepala), he fought and go ran the cat. second night, dreamed again of 3 burung merpati putih, hush away the other two, but another one didn't fly anywhere, in fact it tried to peck dad's head. on the third nite, between sleep and awake, he saw a little black man, say 3 feet high, is peeping at the door, dad shouts and it ran. of all these incidents, mom said dad fought hard, and being an old man, they surely knows how protect themselves, spiritually.

it is so heartbroken to see my parents in that condition, so i brought 'em back to my house. can see he is slightly better, makan nasi bertambah, play wif the kids, butstill somewhere in the nites would wake up coz his body aching.

i'm hoping dad will be better soon, i know it is not 100 precent because of the "tersampuk" or " ketegur" (watever the Malay use to call it), dad got kencing manis, darah tinggi, gastrik so this unexpected incident just makes his health worst i think.

the worst morning in my career life.

kursus induksi bermula semalam. and i've mislook the schedule that IT WAS MY TURN TO GIVE LECTURE THIS MORNING AT 8.30 AM!!!!..

to make it worst, i didn't have anything with me (lecture notes) coz things were destroyed by Spyware.. the one i have now is not yet complete, still working on it.

the secretariate called up when i'm busy preparing the MC's script for Intelectual Discourse, also this morning somewhere in the faculty. can't make the audience waits any longer, just grab my handbook on P# subject and arrive there at 8.55 am. without lecture notes, no Flash / Powerpoint presentation, just a lot of flashback in my head and bunches and bunches of prayer.

Syukur Alhamdulillah, the class (Lecture) was meant for support staff. so goreng la apa yang patut. i only gives them lecture on practicality, left out the history dan teori yang panjang berjela....
Can't imagine if the audience is lecturers and professional staf, abisle markah penilaian aku menjunam turun...

then the lecture was over at 10.50 am...fuhhh... got another lecture on the same subject on 1 June. Better get prepared this time....

once again, i thank God coz give me strenght and a lot lot lotsa confidence to deliver my lecture.

MAWI

lepas tengok konsert prelude at Astro ria last saturday, me kinda lost sebab dia tak masuk AF. maka berbondong-bondonglah orang chat / mail / blog di sana sini pasal mawi tak masuk AF.

the voice amazed me, yelah sebab kalau part makhraj (sebutan huruf tatacara tajwid / baca Quran) dia memang 100 persen. background dia bagus, kalau orang tua yang ada anak gadis, maka pemuda cam mawi lah menduduki carta teratas terhangat di pasaran diharapkan jadi menantu! johan qari beberapa kali gitulah antara yang disebutkan oleh aznil.

lepas konsert tu habis, mata aku still tengok skrin TV, kali ni bukak @15 pulak, mak oi rupanya bukan aku sorang jek geram dia tak masuk, chatters kat blue karpet tu ya rabbi sampai kul 2.00 pagi citer pasal mawi (citer contestant lain ada gak tapi tapi sket jek).

aku harapkan mawi masuk AF so boleh le tengok camana pihak Astro tu buat AF kali ni. adakah diorang pukul rata jek gerak tari (pegang sana-sini laki pompuan) sedangkan mawi (nampak gaya / personaliti) alim, dan adakah kehadiran mawi tu akan membawa angin perubahan dalam AF, jenis lagu yg dipilih ke, ada slot sembahyang jemaah ke, etika sosial dari kacamata islam ke ceramah agama untuk santapan rohani ke dan macam2 lagilah yg orang lain lebih nampak / expert dari aku ni.

mawi boleh dijadikan idola untuk remaja muslim dan mungkin juga non-muslim, boleh dibentuk menjadi artis yang berpersonaliti tinggi (towering personaliti). kita tak banyak artis seperti ini. kehadirannya boleh mengubat kehausan dan dahaga anak-anak muda yang inginkan dakwah disalurkan bukan sahaja dengan menghadiri ceramah, kursus-kursus agama dan bingkisan rohani di radio. memanglah banyak kumpulan-kumpulan nasyid yang mengungguli persada seni tanahair tapi aku rasa dengan penonjolan mawi melalui AF, platform AF yang amat sangat popular sampai orang demam, dapat membuka mata peminat-peminat AF atau bakal2 peminat AF (dan bakal peminat mawi kalau dia jadi artis and ada album) kepada hiburan bermesej dakwah...

begitulah pandangan mataku dan hatiku terhadap penyingkiran mawi dari masuk AF.
begitupun ada pro and cons dia tak dapat masuk. bab tu orang lain dah tulis kat blog dia. tak yah le aku ulas plak kan.

watever it is, aku akan tetap tengok AF.kalau tak penat jek bayar astro tetiap bulann....

memang very der very dot dot lah... fenat jek aku meng"link"kan few blog kat page aku nih, tapi bulih lak tak appear kat skrin nih. check pat template dah ada but wat de happen ... gotta check again and send help mail to blogspot then.

brother in-law's wife, dah selamat melahirkan bayi lelaki last saturday.. adddduuuuuuuuh tengok baby rasa cam nak ada baby lagik jekk.. sabor jelah, macam ler masa nak bersalin dalam labour room tu syok sangat...

dad still ill, not much change since he came home after admitted in HSA early this month. and last night, it suddenly came to mind to make dad consume CNI health product. so this morning i borrow from my fren the CNI catalogue, RM70 if wanna me a member, and roughly i had to spend RM300-400.00 if i wanna buy for him. ok hari ni dah pay day, maybe willl go with the fren to CNI stokis in Tmn Tan Sri Yaakob this Friday.

haven't got time to order a wedding cake for my fren. the wedding day would be on 4 June. i found out last April that she's doing cutting cost budget for her son's ceremony, that's include the cake. la, kesian pulak pengantin tadak gambo potong kek so kira aku sponsor la kan... during my time back in 2000, i remembered that my wedding cake was sponsored by somebody, that somebody anak dia kecik lagi lambat lagi kawen, so ade rezeki nih kira sponsor anak orang la dulu hehehe...

am supposed to upload amalan zikir mengikut hari but i left the zikr book in the living room. sok aje lah....

Forwarded from a friend :


Does Your Blood Type Reveal Your Personality?
According to a Japanese institute that does research on blood types, there are certain personality traits that seem to match up with certain blood types. How do you rate?

TYPE O - my bloody blood type ehe! (and hubby's too)
You want to be a leader, and when you see something you want, you keep striving until you achieve your goal. You are a trend-setter, loyal, passionate, and self-confident (can see those in hubby's). Your weaknesses include vanity(this is bad) and jealously (? - cemburu kat the hubby je kot) and a tendency to be too competitive (this surely not my trait).

TYPE A
You like harmony, peace and organization. You work well with others, and are sensitive, patient and affectionate. Among your weaknesses are stubbornness and an inability to relax.

TYPE B
You're a rugged individualist, who's straightforward and likes to do things your own way. Creative and flexible, you adapt easily to any situation. But your insistence on being independent can sometimes go too far and become a weakness.

TYPE AB
Cool and controlled, you're generally well liked and always put people at ease. You're a natural entertainer who's tactful and fair. But you're standoffish, blunt, and have difficulty making decisions.


This morning me a bit kelam-kabut here and there. Wake up at 7.07 am (there gone my subuh prayer :( ) . Luckily there's few kebaya which i picked up frm dobi so in the rush i dun have to iron my cloth, just took few minutes to iron the tudung.

send the kids at mom's at 7.35. dahtu shafiq (my nephew) tak nak gi tadika sebab tak ada orang. the teacher always come late coz she has been robbed before. actually when i arive at mom's place, the mother is still there in fact she don't even come out from the car. anak dia turun coz i know she expect someone wud pass by the house and the nenek will ask that guy (whoever lah) to tumpangkan cucu dia ke tadika.

haiya, how cud you aa, can't even wait for another 3 minutes, it's YOUR SON going to school wat! kesian punya hal, so dahle lewat, lambat terusle aku gi kerja. 7.40 send shafiq to tadika and i speed up 150km/h on the hiway, press the pedal till 130km/h (at 90km/h area), arrive at the parking lot at 8.02 am. now, i just realize that the car light "on" that's means all the way from my residence to the office, my car is glaring in the broad daylight... ermmm.. lantakler.. must be laila (my baby) who has been messing around with the button at the dashboard).

punch my card at 8.07.15 am . not so bad for a latecomers, thanks that hubby tak bawak keta dia, if i drive my kancil, dah roboh dah kat hiway gamaknyer!

hubby already on da way to KL now, for UKM Alumni Royal Dinner. Then tomorrow he has a meeting to attend somewhere in Putrajaya... so watcha gonna do? stare at my new Scholl (hubby bought for me)..no idea yet, but i've surfed into www.bhg.com and look at few craft for kids. it looks interesting, maybe shud try one of them.

I've finished the propose budget to make a uniform for officers as well as the support staff. the tailor just gone after taking our body fitting, and i've ordered for myself not one, but TWO office attire which only cost me RM300.00. I've considered that as not so cheap or not too expensive, coz all this while i found it difficult to find the right size for me (XS or S) in the market. New cloth for myself wud be ready in 3 weeks time as the tailor wud prepare the office uniform first and work on mine not much later. eee tak sabar nak baju baru yeah yea!

flashback ceramah agama program Semurni kasih 17 mei 05 Jabatan Agama Johor.


menurut hadis (terlupa riwayat mana) yang sempat dikongsikan oleh oleh alfadhil ustaz wan sohor bani Leman tika ceramah ringkas di kompleks islam johor tempohari, kaum nabi Lut yang ingkar perintah Allah dan membuat hubungan seks sesama jenis, telah dilaknat oleh Allah, lalu Allah memerintahkan Jibril turun ke bumi dan menurunkan malapetaka sebgai balasan kepada manusia yang jahil ini.

diriwayatkan jibril telah mengangkat negeri tempat tinggal kaum nabi Lut ini, jibril yang dikatakan mempunyai 600 sayap, setiap satu sayap apabila dibuka seluas timur ke barat, lalu diangkat oleh jibril negeri itu dengan HUJUNG kukunya, diangkat ke langit sehinggakan penghuni langit dapat mendengar dengusan bunyi unta kaum Nabi Lut, dan kaum Nabi lut dapat mendengar penghuni langit berzikir memuji Allah, begitulah gambaran amat tinggi Jibril menjulang bumi kaum Nabi Lut berada, lalu diterbalikkan kesemuanya, terbenam ke perut bumi.
Itulah balasan keingkaran dan kemungkaran kaum Nabi Lut. Masya Allah.
Beruntunglah umat Nabi Muhammad, di atas limpah rahmat kebesaranNya, dikatakan oleh ustaz wan Sohor, menurut kajian dan perkiraan ke atas hadis-hadis serta rujukan kitab-kitab agama imam-imam masyhur, 4 billion 9 ratus juta umat islam umat Nabi Muhammad SAW akan masuk syurga tanpa dihisab. alangkah ruginya kaum Nabi Lut yang telah dilaknat Allah, dan alangkah bertuah umat Muhammad,..

lalu apakah aku akan terus hidup begini? bergelumang dosa-dosa lalu, amal ibadah yang entahkan cukup jadi bekalan di hari pembalasan kelak?

mengapa aku masih gentar untuk mengingatkan muslimin muslimat yang lain, sedang mereka tersesat (seperti Kaum Nabi Lut)?,

adakah layak aku untuk menegur mereka? sedangkan kurang ilmu di dada?

berpesan-pesanlah, walaupun perkara benar itu pahit. mereka akan marah, kubur lain-lain katanya.

ya itu benar, tapi ingatlah, ibu bapa yang hampir melangkah masuk ke syurga, boleh diperintahkan Allah dihumban ke neraka kerana di saat kaki melangkah pintu syurga, suara anaknya sendiri merintih kepada Allah SWT, anaknya masuk neraka kerana ibu bapanya tidak mendidiknya dengan sempurna, lalu masuklah kedua ibu bapa tadi ke neraka, dan anaknya ke dalam syurga.

begitu sekali kehendak dan takdir Allah. lalu apakah nanti ibu bapaku yang masuk ke syurga terpaksa dihumban ke neraka kerana tindak tandukku yang menyeksa mereka?

"I Finally Made Him Smile "

that was TT's touching story 'bout he and his son. a loving bond between father and son that people nowadays lack of. i believe that's only a glimpse of their life, full of happiness, i hope so.

that makes me flashback yester-yesterdays, when i come back from the office, usually i arrived first and the hubby not much later, kim and baby will rush from the nenek's house, showing face glowing of happiness, calling to us and sometime pretending to get angry coz like kim said - "mama ni asyik kerja je" or baby's line - "mama ni, tinggalkan adik je"...

a 4 year old boy and a chubby 2 year old girl, was more than enough to makes me forget all kind of miserables things, strangely, adults found strength and peacefulness from those tiny hands.....

RM50 gift voucher.

Spent 1 and a half hour at MPH Jusco Tmn U looking for books to buy with the voucher. The bookstore haven't got a wide selection like leisure Mall's Pelangi, that's why just to spend RM50 pun i have to go tawaf the room. Kids stuff pun tak banyak. I'm looking forward to buy crosstich or something for craft tapi TAK ADA banyak pilihan. I'm quite Frustrated and to drive to Leisure Mall... it's quite a distant from where i live. So, pilih jek la apa yg ada. Who would want to give u RM50 for free? Got the receipt so better keep it for my income tax rebate later on.

Hubby come back late, Around 1.30 am. while waiting for him, done the laundry and mopped the floor. And this morning dad in-law sent him to Senai Airport for first flight to KL, and then off he go to KK. He would be having his forum shooting with RTM in Keningau.

I'm planning to bring the kids to Angsana, and maybe i will buy (again) a pair of Scholl (or a Calrk maybe?), this time i better get myself the proper size.

Have a happy weekend everybody.

got instruction from the ladyboss to go to Pekan, Pahang for the closing ceremony of Ekspedisi Berakit Antarabangsa Sungai Pahang 2005. The Sultan of Pahang will grace the closing ceremony which will be held at 3.00 pm on Sunday.

Never been there. Staff will fetch me at 7 am. Hubby said it will take around 4 and half hours to reach there from JB. Stay there one night and next morning balik JB. So ada AGM persatuan aku tak leh pergi la kan. BOleh le jenjalan kat Mersing cari barang murah.

Semalam ada tragedi yg melukakan kaki and menyakitkan hati. Aku yg careless. Beli Scholl tak hengat2 dah tu ketat semacham. Dari parking lot nak ke opis rasa macam hazab giler nak tercabot kaki aku. Rasa nak baling kasut tu ke longkang biar hanyut di bawa air hujan hilang dari pandangan mata aku ni. tapi aku dah kopak RM168. Scholl for me is not cheap. Totally membazir, mahal and tak leh nak pakai. Maybe i'll just ask adik ipar aku whether dia nak tak kasut free dari aku. Nak harap dia beli jgn harap le ye lah daripada aku buang ke bakar ke kan.
Rasa macam nak nangis dengan kebodohan diri aku sendiri.

Anyway, masa pilih kasut tu sempat le try kasut Clark. Fuiyoo memang syok rasa macam tak pakai kasut. Tapi harga dia mak oi RM238.00 for a pair of heels and RM118 for a sandal..pergggggggggghhhh!!!

happy birthday to me.

i had my period yesterday. so there was no great sex last nite. and no, i didn't submit any letter for resignation.

hubby were ill, and i'm so worry me myself go late for work this morning coz sending him pergi balik klinik. and i miss that meeting. send the kids to mom's place so that hubby can rest. at noon called him up to confirm he is getting better and resting in the comfort of our home.

after lunch just now i had a teribbly headache. i'm sweating in the air-con room. wat's wrong wif me? gulp down a couple of panadol acti-fast and told my clerk to take messages if there's any call for me. lock the door, off the lights and rest my head for 45 mins. luckily the boss is not in today.

i'm still working on the trip for the P# group to Jogjakarta. i also call this fren to give me a quotation if i wanna go to Beijing. Another visit to IIM is yet to be confirm. em, tetiba banyak pulak kerja.

received RM50 voucher from MPH Bookstore and RM30 from Bata. that's my reward redemption for being loyal to citibank. iyelah tu, hutangnya pun menimbun entah bila nak habis.

the thought of being housewife still linger. so i've listed few important personal things as to remind myself not to be selfish.

i cannot resign coz :
i got few loans to settle which i have to allocate a certain amount from my salary every month to pay 'em.
want to save for myself.
want to give mom some money from wat i myself earned.
i'm free to buy watever i want either for myself or my kids.
so that hubby can save his money for other thing such as emergency, kids education, vacation, celebrations, etc etc
my sister still schooling.
dad needs treatment in general hospital. he's using my privilleges.
and lotsa other thing that need consideration before i stop working in this gov sector.

tomorrow's gonna be my 29th besday! wow bestnya thank God i'm still alive and kicking today to celebrate my pre-happy birthday.

what i want for my birthday - wanna take a day leave? no. got meeting to attend.
great sex tonite? hope i did'nt dozed off while waiting for him come back very late from his business meeting)
checked his schedule this morning, at the moment hubby is free tonite.
dinner without the kids in the hotel? no thank you.
RM? yes yes YESSS ..errr hubby nak bagi ker?
new car? no need, bahan api dah naik, i'm satisfied with my kancil.
gold jewellery? maybe, but i've already got myself a new bracelet. too many barang kemas aiyah terlupa nak pakai.
new Scholl ? yes, i would love that!
baju baru? ermmm not a bad idea.
a baby?..aaaa..aaa..aaaa???
birthday cake? ok.
flower? not on my list.

i want to tender my resignation. that's it.

hubby is planning to extend our house (again and again!)

now i'm busy flapping interior and design mags looking for material and design for the new part of the building. sound fun, but it means i have to take cuti rehat when the wiremen come to do the wiring, or when the wak indon will demolish a part of the wall which connect to the new, shall i say "formal" living room to be-.

dad was admitted to HSA again. so these 2 days i've been transporting myself from home, office, and HSA. Pity mom she has to stay beside dad all nite long coz worry that from time 2 time dad sakit dada, kejap lak sakit perut, nak picit, jalan pun tak berapa kuat.

when i'm old, will there be anybody that will take care of me like mom doing now?

my PC was infected by Spyware. it was so bad that i have to put it aside and use office laptop instead. admin will replace new one for me (and other officer) soon. before that the drive A kokak already, so can't transfer my important document anywhere via internet. Spyware attack was so bad it took a lot my drive space so each time i try to use the internet it went kong half way, jahat betoller sape yg but virus ni ah. so wat i do is print a few docs that really truly important, and get ready the typist will curse at me for making her day miserable heheh!